L, M, N, Know
Not gates and no-hows
Existence exists in silence. Then it appears as instantaneous combusting bonds. After which the chaos of galactic scales ever seeming to rise. Cooled and dispersed, this novel complexity eventually understands itself as resonance in all directions and metrics, from which then a choice for harmony can be made. From there, a steady, compassionate slide into unity; that restful dream of understanding. Before silence appears again. Silence too, however, a sound. And in that recognition, whenever it arises, begins the process anew.
The experience of recreating some part of this process, at any given moment, most existence is doing. Sense turning itself ever inside out. Energy recycling. Digestion, circulation, respiration. Cell turn over. Sleep. Of all these processes, humans created symbolic visuals as representation of the booms and lulls, bangs and burst, peaks and troughs of the cosmos. Lines for motions of sounds. When combined, expressing all understand tis can at anytime, express. Which allow me to present all of creation, timespace and eternity to you in the above paragraph.
Or any that will follow. From monothong to monograph and to large extents then monolith; conscious sound to felt experience of such, represented via symbol; a process of existence speaking to its own eyes. An extremely potent vessel of creative adaptation. In some ways as potent as any womb. Some of nearly anybodies, ever more instantly accessible.
The idea of communication between members of a species is essential. Animals and plants communicate interspecies-ly within space, by smell, root system and body language. To leave your species’ language behind to outlive though, it is to highlight something about it and likely also essential. A physical representation of consciousness communicating with itself, through, over and across time. Evolving to such a place the story of tis remembering the sounds of itself.
Sounds are measured in scales of hertz. Ironically, I’ve often felt that the explosive expansion we observe via cosmic radiation, was surely a less-than-pleasurable start. The remnants of time’s beginning, in us and that are us, respond when our ears or skins sense them. There are sad noises and pessimistic pitches. Inaudible irritations. The play of tension in happy chords. The weight of foreboding melody. There is joy and sorrow, light and heavy, speed and heat; and each variation there of, all within sound.
All shapes, colors, masses also sounds. As with audible sounds, each measurable via vibration. Sense an ever distinguisher of these vibrations. Rocks, to fungus, to us. The ability to imbue meaning and amount by tone, a quality of the rate of vibration, is something many species and ecologies do. It’s elemental. In the center of molecules.
Molecular vibration, the periodic motions of atoms, keeps their center masses unchanged. But atomic motion wags, twists, scissors and rocks. It does this in order to produce molecular stability. At even smaller quanta, every ounce of each speck of all there is, a-spin. These microcosmic sways and twirls appear in the methodical macrocosmic rhythms too. Heartbeat or breath, tides and magnetism. Orbits. The steady repetitives of vibration, are all that is present. Through every variable of sounds: light, color, mass, cells and all symbolic gesture and linguistic effort after. Every song. Every meaning we attribute to any experience, tones; better said, a progression of them. The instrument that senses the distinctions in these vibrations, in most mammals— begins at the base of spines.
Nervous systems are the processors of sensation. For them, all sense, felt. Even thoughts. In our species and others, nervous tissue is the localization of the sense of sensing in any single being. Sponges, animals with no brain or nervous tissue, remain in place and filter all the information that passes through them. Little balls of sensing. They have no nervous tissue because they are essentially, a single piece of nervous tissue; registering. For the task of moving nervous tissue about; funneling what the nervous systems senses, brains develop. That collection of neurotic paths, necessary for motility of a sensing spine and all its parts in the substances of space.
The majority of most brains move bodies, and all the ‘-tions’ necessary to do that, but aim finds illumination though vision: the sense of light. Thus from brains grew eyes, giving the nervous system visual perspective to hone sensory accuracy by the aid of visual light. Along with audible sight and smell sight, all additions to localizing sense amid things to sense. Eventually the localized sense progresses through these systems out through the voice and on to the hominid dexterity in the form of symbolic lettered communication. But communicating what? A sense of what is sensed?
Whether in the slow deliberate blinks of non aggression, or position of the ears pinpointing danger, the calls or moans of mates, messages in bottles, communication of all types and thus languages, essential to navigating feeling in space and the space in feelings. The rates of all that is buzzing about or within us. For most of energetic history, those feelings are of survival. A set of vibrations most humans, regardless of their comforts, struggle to shake operating from. Our individual egoic selves, residing in the same side of the brain as language, see less than is present and know less than they think. Full perspective is reliant on a full brain view.
Animals like cephalopods; creatures made of mostly neuron, have primarily ganglia & lobes in many times ring or toroidal shaped brains. Their ability to absorb information in 360 degrees is beneficial to their environment. Aiding thier ability to control the limbs and skin intricately to the tone of their surroundings. Their very beings are flexible, and mailable, graceful and adaptable, it is what aids them in navigating their worlds. Their throats often threaded through the brain, informing the risks for them in gluttonous meals, likely stopping them from becoming one themselves.
For placenta mammals, brain development lead to managing sensory intake and sensory output via hemispheres. Narrowing the amount that can pass between them to a corpus callosum. As hominids sought and encountered less environmental threat, more specification of dexterity arises in the species. Literally accessing more dimensions of space as our hands became more flexible. Allowing us to better solve survival threats and freeing up brain resources for more processing power. More gray matter, more distinctions.
Humans have been speaking for 35,000 years or more. some estimate for our entire evolution. As we began to, there is serendipitous opportunities and effort of intent by those who did so; to catalog sounds, distinction and experience into oral record. The pressure that must have existed in the throat, having something more that a grunt or groan, yell or wail to express. You can see it at times in infants and animals. The thought without yet words to be told. The yearning to be understood. The weight of every sound to the ears. The breath through the lips. And urgency in the energy of their bodies. The pitch of the expression they manage. The labor of trial and error.
To be considered vocal sound must use the respiratory system, the cavities of lungs. .It is likely that the first sounds of language for our species were vowels in steady repetitive. Much like the sounds monkeys make. For survival, near everything communicated audibly between two individuals of a species can be done so with vowels. The vowel sounds contain essentially all sounds, all of existence. They are the bodied spaces between endpoints. Much like any and all universes.
AUM or om, is known in yogic traditions as a full vibratory representation of this space in vowel sounds. An opening-inhalation-exhalation-closing process. The sound of atmosphere in the throat. The sound rhythmic, breathing, loving, creating planes of matter we exist within, make. At the start of throats are mouths and their powerful muscles, contributing phonation and refining tone. The quality and strength of pitch through the extended throat, in ooo’s and oohh’s and ahh’s, eee’s and oowwww’s. Distinctions of exhalations forming the breathy releases of ha’s and y’s & awww’s. Combined vowel sounds creating diphthong-ed elongations of themselves. Ouie’s of all types.
Consonants are the stops and starts in turning these vowel sounds into syllable through the human aperture. The pressure created opening lips or those breathy exhales of a sound’s end. The pauses and rumbles of sequence. The mmmm’s and meh’s, huh’s and eh’s. Puffs and shhs. They also aid in the ability to mimic what is heard. The caw’s and hisses, grrrsss and bangs, croaks and roars. Yells. Discovered in the tensions and placements of the tongue against the palate. Found D’s, and Te’s. Or the space between the jaw in G’s and J’s.
L, M, N, O, P though mostly consonants, is the most sing-songy part of our western alphabet. That is because it highlights the range of oral gymnastics needed to orate at all. With the tongue’s natural position being at the roof of the mouth, L’s are a mere linger of that position when opening the mouth for vowels. Especially in a mind motivated to distinguish. M and N closed and open lipped cousins. Steady mmm or nnnn sounds, dug up from the bottom of grunts and growls. Vocal vibrations buzzing in a closed space through the skull cavities. P’s pulled from the pants of the hunt or labor’s of child birth, breath pushed through the lips.
These the ranges of distinction and coordination by any vocal tract. Airflow shaped through, around and between structural shapes—equals audible sound. That which lifts planes off the ground, lives in our lungs. Vocal sounds, the shapes of currents and clouds, audible in the resistance of tissue. Pair them with reinforcing experiences, in which certain sounds made, achieved certain outcomes, and language find it’s genesis. All language.
Sensing bodies, then throats and mouth musculature. These the resources many species including ours had to produce understanding between themselves. The tools of gesture, noise and vocals. From the Latin, lingua meaning tongue, languages of words require great mobility in the mouth for many of their tricks. Hominid mouths are distinctly capable of forming vowels. Our strength and coordination of musculature handle a variety of consonance. These novel adaptations of our anatomy and languages, a derivative of expansive complexity. As source system’s experience different environments, as they spend less to survive, as they understand there is more to understand, brain matter becomes more complex in adaption to process that complexity. Complex as differentiated from the complicated.
Complexity occurs when from many similar parts or simple process’, vast and varied outcomes arise. Rhythmic outcomes. Outcomes which hint at designed. Complicated is something difficult to do. A process with many arduous steps or redundancies. Most machines, governmental, clerical, and corporate processes behave in these ways. Bodies, cosmos, eco-systems, insect colonies, growth patterns and more however, form certain sets of mechanism materializing in myriads of ways. Complexity is a natural process of the universe rather than complication of it.
Vibrational complexity is likely what bonds molecular elements together. That which makes the potentials of atomic numbers actuate in each element. Resonate potentials ever amplifying. It is I sense, the mathematical accuracy of the strings and sets of popular theory. Complexity of the cosmos is and happens in, spaces of time. Most potent and undefined at the smallest measurements and shapes. Cosmic radiation fundamentally a measure of the universe when this most recently began. An initial strike of the internal gonging. A vibratory sounding out in heat and goo, every reverberation resulting eventually, in the atoms that produce these crossed t’s and dotted i’s before us.
Vibrating verbally, is the action of wording. Verbal sound the combination of vowels and consonants in specific orders. Repeatable orders. Cadences and articulations. Pronunciations. Sounds transforming into useful noise. These combinations of sounds, are a sequence that when done correctly, spell out a message. Spell as a verb, finds its origins in oral traditions, it is what we did to form words, in order to teach another what we meant. The development of spelling, a phonetic oral process. Each and all language following this path.
Letters initially symbols of experience. Experience that likely had a form, represented in the shape the symbol took. Used to spell of experiencing that form again. Prepare or leave for another. A transition of tellings into glyph. Harnessing the experiential felts: feelings and thought. Harnessing the potential to be felt. To be know beyond voice. The root let- means to allow or leave behind. Let-ters the hominid adaptation to quite literally accomplish that.
They arrive first on cave walls as petroglyphs. The Proto-Sinaitic set of images. After which, in the Nile River Valley, consciousness spelt itself out in the pictographic-phonetic hybrid of Hieroglyphs, a Greek word meaning holy carving, for over 4,000 years. Since then ever complex operations of mind, toward ever complex understanding. New languages, new symbols, new writing systems often built from and upon those encountered before it. Many branches towards being, being understood.
“..the action of nonhuman organism resembles the way human writing is likewise a form of mark-making”. -Ada smailbegovic.
In each symbol, hieroglyph, rune, and letter, a piece of essentially, potential. A single chime, a single marking can indicate a wealth of information. Each slight variation how sense discriminates matter types. The minutia between each aspect of itself. Early letters were symbolic of ideas. After the Egyptians, the Greeks in pulling ideas and shaping their sounds formed a very robust alphabet. The word alphabet quite actually means ABC’s or AB’s to be most precise, with each sound representative beyond itself.
Omega for example indicative of the limit of a set. The place where cycles end-begin-again. Analog of the self and thusly all tis. Ω as the sense of sense that is sensing, in each and every corner of every galaxy in every dimension, and every cell of every anything. O in the throat, in all words it has been used in since, inclusive to some extent, of that complex sense of meaning. Eventually compressed in the 0’s of our data.
That is a lot for a single letter. For anything, though it true for nearly all things. From the wavelengths that mean blue, to the logos that mean conglomerations, to the spinning chemicals in the smell of a mate, or rot or a bouquet of flowers. Each ringing out. When we speak in sounds, the same. So too with letters, abstraction of the abstraction that sense, sensing the buzz of itself, would be. Invented to point past what is, to what tis. Initially to harness for an eternal moment, the source of the language in our throats. The source too of understanding. How we use them and have used them through time in vocal and written communication, an endeavor towards mattering. Quite actually, and perhaps too, quite manifestly.
Words of letters are spelt. Each combination meaning something subtly different. The their/there, weather/whether’s, as vital as what distinguishes pieces of plutonium from its counterpart uranium. As what distinguishes sincerity and the disingenuous. The way the code of rNA inside living cells matters to each individual. The many tones of tis self.
In the left brain, an ability to get by on a gist, has left nuance rendered mute in many forms. Likewise, the skills of subtly and thus discernment, and thus understanding. Where eloquence a skill of pronunciation and delivery, so too is it a tool of charm, deceit and influence. Something many and often the kind, susceptible to. The word charm, as with spell, find paths in language’s history as incantation. The ability to use words to call forth outcomes. For many early species this process attempted in chants and mantra. In collective voices. A sounding out, to reap a drawing in. As us, or to us.
Words are collected currents and flows of potential ever ready to be sent out. Towards others, outcomes, selves. A well of abundance. These motionless lines on a two dimensional surface contain all that vibrational potential of the universe. The paper wagging, the ink buzzing, the text a vibrational illumination. Pointing toward that which exist inside our bodies. Inside how mountains form, inside the closed wings of a bird. Inside virus walls. When expressed with coordination, a literal voicing of that potential into existence. Likely even when just read. The choices of and around language affect all who encounter it. In many ways even those felts we never say. Saying it a spark to its potential. When composed with awareness and foresight and considerate compassion, a force of unmatched beneficial creation.
More often our felts and our orifices on legs, join with the half-blind brain set out to survive and pass down those skills above all else. While that might have been enough to simple survive, all the maths, all the spirit traditions, all the theory, all the history point to ever expanding forms of consciousness. Could it be more logical to give full consideration to surpassing the skills of survival? What of learning to give voice to the half of the brain that has full sight? How do we take what’s felt and communicate in genuine, palatable, honest and even objective terms? Fostering understanding. Shunning discord.
Instead our language often rushed or rehashed. Word choices provided for the majority of us, via news, movement or popular culture. We regurgitate terminology and lingo. We use and misuse words at a pace that is unprecedented for any other adaptation tool. But so frequently we fail to be understood, or even understanding. The original necessity of communicating lost to an unconscious desire of hearing one’s own voice irregardless of the message. A light upon that part within tis which struggles to listen to itself. To understand and reap the benefits of its voices.
All early spoken languages from Aramaic to Greek are implicated in the origins of the term abracadabra. Likely a mispronunciation of the Hebrew term ebrah k’dabri, which translates to, ‘I create as I speak,’ what is said is done’, and so forth. Offering the idea that the early mind of man across the deserts of our religions, also understood the complex reality that are vocal words. The ever fractal-ed amplifications. In the creation of tangible existence, speaking at all is essential a magical act. A complex evolutionary endeavor only successful on our planet in one species. Ours.
Aliester Crowley was a known practitioner and follower of Egyptian lore. In 1904, he published channelings which added an H to abracadabra, in honor of Horus and intending its meaning more toward the acts of will. Initiated in dark artistry, Crowley was no stranger to the presence and possibility of the malefic. He understood letters and spells of them could be used for decency or deceit. The last line of the 1904 channeling is, ‘The ending of the words is the Word Abrahadabra. Indicating deeds would tell our tells: an expression that ultimately the strongest of human creations remain in what we will.
Magick is the science and art of causing change to occur in conformity with will. - A. Crowley
Crowley was also publicly known as a 20th century occultist; member of The Order of the Dawn, ambitious, ruthless, full of vice and decadence seeking. His Book of the Law where he introduces Abrahadabra, in many ways likely demonically influenced, but H and it’s vibrational resonance changed none by this. This breathy exhale is at the start of some of our most peak experiences of sensation, feeling and sense. Happiness, healing, honor, honesty. Having, havoc, hate, horny, hectic, help, hope and happenstance. Perhaps adding H to the beginning, Habracadabra, can positively remind we can willfully create as we speak. Granting us both capacities in the reportory of our creation.
Crowley was neither the first nor last to comprehend the creation capacities inside language. Many before and many since. Over 70 years later, Terrence McKenna, from his experiences with psychedelics, specifically DMT, would find speech creation a fundamental aspect of novelty systems. A dimension expanding quantum leap from consciousness through physical matter. In the below video, he describes his understand throughly, and uses the phrase ‘speaking objects into existence’ an interesting word choice likely unconsciously hinting at the purpose of verbal language to create objective reality for itself and those who practice the behaviors of it.
In 2006, we see the popularization of The Secret, attempting to explain the processes of producing willful change. The apparatus’ of mirroring and manifest reality. How we navigate the feelings where we are, to the feelings of where we want to be. Today quantum theory suggest all our reality a holographic projection; but of what and from where?
The spoken sounds and letters we began to form within and on cave walls instigating our progression of understanding so far, and for any progression further. Language’s ability to shape our experiences and realities, and our forms of consciousness or morality is unprecedented. It has and does for most species. Ours of sound and symbol and letter has yet to produce any generation to harness its full potential. Might that be due to how we understand the words we choose to spell out?
In 1854 psychology began forming perspective of internal spaces, and language began being applied to emotional landscapes and behavior in a theoretical and experimental way. Language however comes from within, and for the entirety of its existence affecting that space, across species. All beings sense, and thusly at an energetic level communicate. Most however are pre-linguistic. Many animals comprehend and seek to understand, skilled in all forms of sensual communication, thought and human language included. Given encouragement and opportunities, as discover by speech-language pathologist Christina Hunger, they will grow massive vocabularies to express themselves.
Learning and choosing to speak, for any species, an explaining of itself and it’s environment to itself. Explaining tis self across selves, at all levels of consciousness. Navigating internally and externally more complexity. To have the language to explain yourself is a process of knowing yourself; environmentally and with others. Of knowing the self. With mastery a knowing how to know the self. Discoveries of the fundamental drive in cell creation that evolves a nervous system then into a brain, manifesting the way those brains structure themselves within the stimulus they receive. Resulting in motile behavior. Of which language, and for humans, writing are. Tactics in the nervous system to navigate sense with a brain.
Since Freud laid out unconscious space in the individual, psychology has been essentially categorizing these tactics. Behaviors, of which communication style a type. Personalities are built out of a collection of these different methods of being, vacillated through any given day. When any one category of behaviors dominates a personality, that category becomes fundamentally a -tic of its particular nervous system. Autistic, empathetic, psychopathic, sadistic, neurotic, narcissistic, sociopathic and so on.
Strategic adaptations, with little ability of self regulation. Hardwired and hardware behaviors and social strategies based on internal feelings or lack of them. Many -tic tactics experience pathologies around language use and communication, many are considered. Showing the direct connection between understanding, expression and mental well being. These -tic words are sets of behavior. Safety strategies in most cases. Each of us can feel upon the world in such behavior, feel upon each other. Some know no other option for themselves. Which, how often, and how they are perceived is a multi-symptomatic labyrinth of verbal language’s impact in the human psyche, and by correlation the eco system of environments, communities and the planet.
-Ism words in comparison, act more like sets of beliefs, definitions and opinions about the word they are attached to. The Feminine, an archtypal thing. Feminism, is all the concepts and claims, and history and feelings to identify with, around the thing. Isms are prepositional ( as in preposition) to the thing they are said to describe. As they can also include all the misgivings and misunderstandings they can never entirely pinpoint any precision.
-Ists similarly, indicate an additional abstraction, a collection of knowledge or experience or behavior by a person, associated with its root word. Again with all the potential of ill-formed understanding. Prejudice based on race, unfortunately an experience humans encounter. A racist would be a person who is prejudice by race. That term however, may also be pointed at behaviors other than racial bigotry, as a loaded term used to damage or discredit. -Ists and -isms are blanket understandings of labyrinthine histories. The are relative and ambiguous by nature because they can be directed at anyone and subject to the intent of the speaker. Which, as with many other behavior, can often be unconsciously motivated. More definitive terms, used to describe sensitive issues however requires thoughtfulness and reservation.
Any word is vulnerable to this loading of negative connotation, as an insult or implication and the human unconscious easy pray. Terms like nazi, or conservative, gender and sexual orientation, names like Chad, or political ideology, thrown around as derogatory and defamatory. Even words like loud or quiet or those around weight or age, activate directly the energies of shame and worth, inside the human emotional terrain. Honestly almost any term can act this way. Debate or guilty or cilantro. We each have our own little collections of stored experience and in that experience can be words that elicit feelings encountered previously. Terms that pull us through time in space to moments of joy or sorrow.
Language as an extension of behavior might seem contrary to the sticks and stones rhyme of old, but the foothold of language policies speaks to, it in fact mattering to how the world matters. How perhaps it vibrates on a molecular level. When there are trillions of cells or atoms, persicion in communication between them likely integral to keeping things together. Whether bodies or aluminum. And thus if our lives are the cells (irony) of a bigger collective health, the clarity of understanding between them likely important beyond measure. Language is a utensil of understanding sense. As a precision instrument, over a hammer of freedom, or weapon of any type. For language’s potential to provide clarity is without comparison.
That requires that we comprehend the nuances in the vast, varied, variety, of words available. Varietize (the act of creating a variety?) our vocabularies. That we take the time to choose our words carefully. Taste them, before serving them as we do a meal to those we love. It requires too, listening, in order to learn where we are saying the same things to better address any differences.
It requires we open our understanding to the delicacies of words that describe experiences, many of which are included in languages other than english. To the slight differences of things like wonder and awe, which is wonder with reverence and often fear. To understand our language and are parts of speech are descriptors of our lives, our actions, ourselves. How synonyms relie on similarities more often than being the same in definition. Interchangeability a tool of clarification, of being most precise. They express a spectrum of a thing or action or feeling. Often times venturing into the etymology of a word will reveal ever more profoundly these gradations. But slight nuance can exsist nearly anywhere for a conciousness motivated to notice.
I have habit of using the word segue during composition and editing to distinguish places where ideas need joined. I rapidly however, found myself unsatisfied with segue alone. Evolving my typing of Segway (because consumerism) in the places that required them, into a variety of options for me to indicate the ‘mood’ I thought the segue might take. Segwoah, segwow, segwah, segwee, and more. Each of the-end sounds are primary. Those primitive vowels. Sounds any verbal child could make. But contextually they can be interchangeable to a plethora of feelings. Because sense and thus speech ultimately a felt endeavor and the languages of them our ever bettering tool for navigating in a feeling existence, as a feeling existence.
From I to antidisestablishmentarianism to supercalifragilisticexpialidocious words no matter how many letters they contain, are the expression of tis felts. The evolution of great apes into orators a progressive endeavor, ever at it. The subtle distinctions between all bits of itself a process of precision in contrast. Which phonated language aims to aide, and elaborate upon. The spoken sound the tool we have put to the greatest use in expressing what is sensed. Share that between us. Weapons too are tools, for harm or defense, and we wield language often knowing and unknowingly. From posturing to politeness each of us ever conscious agents or narrative following moral actors. All of us navigating each level, at some moments in a day I imagine, but the less time we spend moral acting, falling in line, parroting the labels of the narrative, the closer to authentic we can be. Genuinely understood and understanding.
Using our words to their highest intent, essential to our greatest willful expression, as a species.
To get there we must address our choice of language around what is felt; around negativity especially. Which often find itself hidden under a repressive tendency, one stemming from a a safety in numbers instinct. But that instinct can run herds of plain animals over cliffs. Hearing or saying no, is a collective pain. Only now are we beginning to find healthy, over reactive as ways to deal with feelings around such things like pain, deceit, corruption, fear, trauma, and restriction. Only now beginning to dig through the unconscious felts and it’s workings.
The negative prefix’s create most often opposites of the word they are attached. Facing the meaning of that word across from itself. But the tyrant of all negative expressions is ‘not’. Over time in linguistic history, a loop can be seen in writing of negative expression across languages. A vacillation from the use of not to contracting not, back to using not. An odd collective habit. This process is even mirrored in the binary system of digital code. A principle Boolean operator known as a not-gate inverts the input it is given. But when sending the energy of feeling through a verbal not-gate, the inverted energy is often more of the original input.
Woven within conceptualizations about manifest reality and manifestation is the idea, that focusing on what is wanted, integral to the process. That aiming for less of something counter productive to bring about the wanted. Now, were the world on an advanced protopian trajectory, I’d have nothing to do but agree. However when we collectively look around, it is obvious there are things we all could do without. A more specific idea dealing with negative expression suggest that the readiness potential that exists amplified in language nullifies the ‘not’ negative in much the way the not-gate inverts it’s input. In the sentence, ‘Not, does not mean not,’ for example, vibrationally measures as, ‘does mean.’ Which about sums up the painstaking pace of human emotional advancement.
More than five years ago I started trying to remove not from my language. In an effort to free myself from things I had no desire for. Hoping to help the universe be clear about what it was I would rather turn up no more. It’s difficulty to do would amaze you. It’s numerous occurrence in our everyday speech became immediately apparent. Hundreds of times, by hundreds of thousands of people, not or its contracted form act as a modifier for the verbs in our lives. For our negative felts. For our negative expressions. Even today, not will appear under moments of unconscious fluster and overstimulation or in rare and very deliberate use, typed.
While the success gurus are correct that focus on positive desire is a speedy route for manifesting. That which binds language to creation, is always listening. Meaning for those healing or still in a cycle of safety, things desired often contain unforeseen circumstances or are driven by unhealthy ideals. For the entirety of history that has been the case for most human endeavors. Many of those ambitious enough to hold such focus on desire to manifest at all, carry unconscious drives which lead to consequence we now all pay. Traumas and blessings of lineages, a war within all thoughts.
For this self, such a mindfulness practice has reduce any confusion about what I wish ended in my world. By doing so, I also produced desire and feeling states for things I was unaware I could even want more of. Unaware I was even worthy of being desirous for. Like healing and gentleness, grace and genuine companionship. Better to aim for, revealed in the place of the things I was busy prior trying to affect with contraction, all the while in a universe that is an ongoing expansion.
This restriction in my speech was to free myself from misunderstanding. To be more intentional with the potential in speech, that is sound, that is vibration, that is the innumerable, immeasurable inexhaustible source of what can be observed and beyond. A process of coming to know myself ever better, and feeling through all ranges of this knowing and no-ing myself. No-ing one self for better habits, no-ing oneself to balm the stings of the rejection of others. To practice the beauty of humility against the prides of ego. To empathize with a universe that never ceases, and practice with intent, integrity and authenticity the willful ability to do just that. In giving up not, I allowed more awareness in. And only from such a place as this, can a free speech truly exist.
For freedom of speech much more exists in agreement on what is being said than saying anything you wish however you wish. The freedom of having the words and the space to form them, in mind and interaction. To understand the terms of others to better communicate ideas between us. Which is why our public sphere experiences so much discordant interaction. Our paths to ever more confusion. Paths too often explored. While the defense of free speech has a storied history, it rarely moves past having it or being restricted from having it. Where does our free speech become more about the choices made with it over having it alone?
Could our free speech be of a self choosen compassionate understanding about what we are all really facing, our world halves it’s problems with little other effort. Constitutionally protected is the ability to make such a choice for ourselves. But the more we fail at this, the less protected the choice becomes. Where the thoughts and feelings and expressions of ourselves arise from individual internal integrities, dictated speech can never take hold.
Where though the expressions we use are dictated to us, they lose any intent but that of the dictators. To know or no ourselves and the words we choose for our spells the ultimate necessity for an individual or collective. A lack of awareness, open mindedness and sincerity will always be the greatest threat to the right of free speech. For where we choose to be thoughtless with words and actions, we leave ourselves vulnerable to those who would use that as an excuse to implement less than honorable influences on us, with theirs.
The sounds of words in our lungs and minds, are perhaps our greatest resource of understanding. As quarks and the choices of their turns grace all matter we know into existence, could too the words we choose? With compassion, empathy and openness, discernment and accuracy at the forefront of those choices, I sense the better we all get at it collectively, the better we all give of ourselves and thusly the better we all get.
Until next time 🤍